Dropped him off at the office park but there were no cars there
Next thing I know I’m 5 towns away and it’s all grey and I’m lost in a cold stare
Heard 3 muffled bangs, but I thought the car ran out of gas
Left it in the middle of the road and walked a block home and started Mass
Watched him come home and pray and I just stood there and watched with nothing to say
You were supposed to be my man but you gave me away
What was that check for or did you do it free
We all on tapes now, and nothing could be more precious
Cause I ain’t like you bitches, I ain’t fucking selfish
“They say every dog has it’s day coming, it’s like you seen his ghost but he ain’t say nothing”
Finish out the verse by Scar face
Back in the day I’d jump off that rock into the water on a dare
Now I’m cracking up to the ending of that song beware
Family is my god and it’s scary to think I might’ve been confirmed already a mother
You wanna talk about Hail Mary but that’s engraved on the tombstone of my brother
And there always is another
At first I would’ve preferred to die, now I want to live and I don’t even know why
Walking the rules of a game we obey, I’ll never forget when that cop turned his monitor to show me
And it wasn’t that you was on their side all along, it was we grew up together, thought I knew you strong
But you raised me thorough, probably one of the only ones to jump in and get out
Cause a record make you bleed for life, you learned that the hard way no doubt
“Shit don’t always happen as you plan it get jammed up you really find out who your fam is”
Let Jada finish the verse finish
I always flash back to that night, when Chris died and I saw it all in site…
Ran passed the guns and got out the house, now I know it’s cause it was my side shooting, how you think I’m thinking now?
Loyalty is everything and something I never had
To find out it’s all crooked and I’m just good at being bad
My homegirl, we used to bounce around the metal detectors in puffy’s at the club
Now I wouldn’t doubt she set me up to be raped and probably for less than a dub
Then this one…
Thought you was my boy but you slept me for a couple of pics
Just because I told you NO and that’s where that knife sticks
You threw it up in my face then wanna act like it didn’t mean nothing
Now we on opposite sides dawg… man I ain’t fronting
“On my dick nickel, I thought that’s what your bitch for”