A Disciple's Thread

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I feel so betrayef by you pac... Causs you lst rhem

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I only trusted tim causr of you

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If ypure on the same side as thd dope hrad anx my old friebds then leave me alond and dont come vack rver too

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I was single for 8 years wtf

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I even gave you a full year of bo sex to respect too... You wsnt even checking forr me

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Ate you at least gibg to ley me see my daughter becofe i go yo jail for tbe rest of my life? Im not ever go.nna. Be slept raped or hit ever again

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Ill kull before i let them

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Ill do it jn fro t kf the judge you dont know whaf jts like no one dioes

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Get his money in my account and we will match what he paid you to talk



You done fucked with the wrong bitch

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Found money free money and I mean it

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I forgot how bad I used to be LMFAO

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She pranked my house 63 times but they wouldn’t let her come outside cause they knew

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I was in my convertible at the light and sitting sideways by Paul wall came on and I looked down and wS sitting sideways and busted out crying saying I feel like the fakest bitch in the world

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I just had to find my balance of both worlds again like my mom and my dad

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I was sitting in my car they all was standing outside and I got slow mo so I sat up and saw. Red car with tint going slow and the window came down and I could’ve sworn I seen a shorty barrel pioke out so I screamed and they all ducked the car got confused and took off

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We was kings that night lmfao

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Of course I get slapped smh

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A guy from the gas station followed me to my car and my bf saw and slapped me for it and I ain’t even do shit

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We broke up a few weeks later that’s why I said that in that piece maybe that’s all it was for

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War is actually fun to me I miss having fun

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My very first tour I lost one… never again

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I don’t know shit about magic and can’t stand it - wish I knew how to of kept Ming safe too

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Along time again fuck the padi who care

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Losing time*

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Fuck that pedi who care

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Around 11pm i think

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Was it the guy in McDonald’s the same one that was parked. Behind my car that I hit? Is that him cause he did favor the creeper at the massage place that was on my ass for 45 minutes - I know why people help him cause he pay but as soon has I get his money I promise we pay more

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Can someone help me?

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I’ll tell pac not everyone why I know for facts

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Take away his money and he’s not a threat

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I deserve it since I was in 2nd grade

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I’ll lmatvh what he paid you tb help him to talk

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Match*

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What ever you do do not shoot him in the head - the brain lives for 7 minutes when yoo die and 7 minutes a long time and I’m sure my god hate him more than me

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Keep hitting him with the defrib maybe cause that hurt like a bitch

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I almost put a DNR in place it hurt so bad but I’m over it

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Get iOS creepy voice out my head too please

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His*

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My cirgarette was packed and I don’t pack my cigarettes

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I’m fine I’m used to him fucking with my body and head but he shouldn’t be able to come into my mothers house

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Can’t you just arrest him right now? I mean everyone know and seen it

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Can you transfer isi money in my account like he used to steal from mine?

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It my money he’s been stalking me since I was a fucking baby

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He ruined my career my life my sanity my health

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Has me trapped like some lab rat defamed my character me my family

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Ruined every relationship I ever had

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My mom said Tim didn’t hit me I’m sure the pedi did

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It literally feels like it was just 1am a half hour ago

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I just didn’t want to stay up all night again I hate that but not gonna be able to sleep now anyway

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My torture cell phone won’t let me post on ig anymore

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They’re threatening my body again and it’s my body lying not me we established that much tonight

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If it’s old man pedi sending me visions then I don’t want them anymore

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Not my weird ass beatle juice dreams morning dreams

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Lying dream I meant to say even had me second guessing

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People I never even met

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Saying all what I am? Hiow?

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How you know who I am when you never met me, smoked with me, had a convo with me, or even been in the same room

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I use have a strong personally sometimes and people don’t know how to take me - obviously cause I have a kind heart they thought they could play me - BUT NEVER TO MY FACE AWAKE

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Go prove your godson on someone else and maybe then I’d believe you

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Godom* thinking you are a god on earth. I don’t believe in that

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Why does he refuse to leave or leave me alone though?

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Why won’t anyone make them?

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So pac… are you coming back for me?

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I have to learn to love myself more and get mad when people hurt me

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I’ve made excuses for too many people and I know I can’t do that anymore

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This down time has me thinking hard

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Jicera it’s jasmine I didn’t even read past the first line and nope has to be rewritten but jasmine we were all wondering if you was gonna end in on the pole A strippers trained me too

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was in the fog fully aware
Only got split seconds and the other times? if I was even there
When your world shift to slow mo
Things are more important, things you will never know
I come from high culture slapped back to ghetto
I lived both sides so my demeanor is different
Rich or poor it was both vociferent
Sitting sideways one day made me cry
So back to my poor, back to my side when they all asked why
For my jasmine
My jasmine live behind castles walls
But as toy soldiers when one down, we all fall
Walking - looking back remembering every bit
Soldiers training a general they contemplate as we sit
They all know I’m a higher one day
Trying to pull a “pac” on me is all I have to say
Is all I live for in this day
Besides my Jasmine
Game I ain’t trying to chase a cat - I’m just running back
But no longer will I sit here and allow the disrespect in attack
God chose - he was ghost - I was life
Street sweeper to General - not Cinderella to wife
And I too will raise mine if even in death so it to be
But you better not dare lie to jasmine when it comes to me
I ain’t ever met a female stronger than me
So pardon me if I can’t bow down or respect
Pardon me while I reshuffle this deck
Not one that actually walks the streets and just pretends to be
Speaks about all that it’s like pretending to be me
Some crack head hoe who swear she my death
And I put it on my last breath
Just like she put that k on that meth

A disease
A disease you just infect the hood
Now fall back and just respect as you should
Jasmines on my mind so you better tell them get the fuck back up
If I don’t make it, you make them stand again and just say yup
And to that bitch...
You may be the one to call the guns aiming at me
But three times I survived and you can’t ever take my virginity
Raised among wolves but I wasn’t the one in sheep‘s clothing
I didn’t have a pack I was all alone babysitting their sleep stopping they choking while they all chasing a thrown
So maybe the next world is mine I learned by watching you not to fuck up
Cause this is just level one - pyre stand the fuck back up
While you sticking pins in my skin or my eyes - my heart growls
Remembering every “I thought it was a lie” counting owls
I seen him at the cones, back then I was only 14
So know every step ahead of you and your fortune already seen
Oh I didn’t have a vest? Took three to the vagina and still lived
Regretting every moment I ever forgived

Listen...




For jasmine I say fine, for my jasmine I spit every line
For Jasmine who gonna watch over all of mine
For Jasmine - my faith and my nine

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Because I never had unprotected sex but hasd a std and found out the day after my dad died… somebody was still huritng me

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They beat me into the hospital the day I talked to mooch trying to set him up and the bleu tooth device was named flex setting him up

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Not even there I have no clue how they do it other than hypno

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My spy cam picked up recordings

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Or my ptsd so bad I just go into that world no part of my core being would ever let them so ask my aunt idk

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I’m not committing suicidal THEY ARE

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Half my electronic devices in my car this shit not a joke playing on my mental I’ve had since 5th grade

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I lost an hour or two last night

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My GMA and my condo ran out of places to run my dads gf didn’t want me there even a week when he had surgery

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A lot of crazy people aren’t like that though but I see where people can get scared cause I do too in mental but I also neeed to learn how to stop making excuses for people

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They tortured me im not exaggerating

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I hate that I’m so poor I can’t even. Go to McDonald’s if I’m hungry

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What’s going on and why doesn’t it ever stop and people tell me

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I never took an hallucinate before

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And don’t want to hallucinate sober a why does it feel like he refuse to take no

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When do I go back to “my”!world

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No fucking means no so gooooooo

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I don’t want to live like this in their world

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Why is he allowed to force me to live like this

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I must want to be my self

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In reality

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Just* I can’t stand being forced to share my body

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Why am I kn hell on earth pac? Nah I checked

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I know I’m not built like that especially cause of my mentally illness I don’t believe in a man in my body that won’t leave

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Either and pac they demanding to change my nature or god - how do I get me and my body back

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And how they just take away my god like that though

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Cause ot puts me in a world that I don’t derserve and he in the low low hell from me

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I hate felling like my enemies in my own body

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I can’t stand it

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I don’t want to be in hell with them

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Not a match on tastes

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But they refuse to believe that

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And go away

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And I want to be flat the butt if your “power” why how they got my body? I did that myself too

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This disrespectful shit like they’re stronger than me in my own body and type what the fuck they want instead of what I’m trying to say

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It’s under god just NOT MINE

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I don’t like it and they refuse to leave

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I don’t like the atmosphere in their world and don’t want to be ridden like a car

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I’m going to bed

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My my father and the holy sprin that’s it

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You can’t force me to change my religion and body

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PAC why you let him? Is he with.you?

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Why you let them? I don’t like it and I want to be respected in my own body